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well i think stacey thinks i hate her which isnt cool shes my best friend in the whole wide universe..... and she should know this by now =( make me sad but..... i donno i made erin sad and its not cool i like really feel bad for it i hate myself for that and i didnt get to go to joeys hockey game but my mom desided to let me do somethingat the last minute and joey was already gone..... so i went bowling with stefan.... it was pretty fun man i hope erin doesnt hate me =( if she does im gonne be a nurvouse VV|2eC|< ::wreck for all u uncool people lol:: but yeah ive had a bad few days mom yelling at briana briana yelling back and then briana yelling at me then mom yelling at me then me yelling at them both ..... then they both shut up cuz im the man..... but then it just sux cuz i love my little sister to death and shes just doin bad stuff =( not cool but hopefully i can get her to stop..... but i want to tell these great people i love them.... Ron Kreutzer.... Joey.... Erin.... Tara.... Nancy.... Stacey.... Tori.... Justin.... Will.... Sam Hale.... Bop A.... Anthony.... Kevman.... and the P-jster..... you guys help me alot... PJ u help me every EFFIN time i see you and all u do is make me crack up so hard man ur insain lol.... justin great times man.... Joey..... you know nagga lol... Ron u-da mayn and were cuzins but should have been brothers =).... Stacey i help you u help me u know it lol.... Nancy and Tara when u 2 are together with me we have fun and u both help me a great deal.... Tori and Erin always there for me ::plus ya know me and erin lol:: .... Will just hanging out man.... Sam talkin online and u make me tell you everything and u always find a way to help.... Bri i love you babe and im lookin out for you.... Anthony u are the TACO KING i lost at eating them so when were together we eat tacos and more tacos lol love ya bro.... and last but not leased.... The KEVMAN you.... you my man are a guitar playin mofo lol and when we hang out we have a blast with ur moo's and baaaaa's ur arnold voice dude ur a pimp and then u teachin me guitar ur hilariouse and a great person thanks man for being there....
oh one more thing
i love you dad
layter
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| 07:03pm 10/08/2004 |
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mood: blah music: Tonic-if you could only see
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Theres so much stuff thats wrong or confussed..... stuffs just gay and even tho it seems to be this way and seems to stay this way.... ill just keep my life how it is because im with her and thats all i need for me to have a glimps of light in my life..... i have the happiest times in my life when im holding her and when im with her nothing can go wrong.... i love you and i want you to always remember it..... |
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| 10:10pm 04/08/2004 |
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Wow im so fuckin happy..... but sad at the same time..... im happy because the alone empty feeling is gone and is replaced with love and compation.... but the thing is.... now i miss her everyday of my life i dont see her even if im talking to her for hours at a tiome if i cant see her and cant feel her im sad.... dont get me wrong after a 10 hour day at work me comming home and hearing her voice makes me very happy but i still miss her gental touch and beautiful smile loving heart and caring hands... shes the love of my life adn i wont let anyone take her away from me this time.... if you dont like us together fuck off i dont care who you are and if you care.... you u arent happy for me lick my nuts.... i love her and no one can change my mind or make me look your way because my hearts picked this girl everytime ive asked it too and i was too scared to go back but i guess she wasnt lieing when she said those 3 words to me... cuz in ever kiss i feel my heart race at exrodinary speeds.... i love her and your my friend and u cant support me and her fuck you.... your not a true friend.... im in love and all i can hope is for her to love me in the same way i love her and only hope she feels the same way every day were together so i dont break again.... if it was my choice.... id be with this girl for the rest of my life and after.....
i love you Erin
Joey DesJardins you are my fuckin GOD! :-D i love you man
Anthony is the Taco King bitchs
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| 01:43am 30/07/2004 |
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I FUCKIN LOVE YOU SAM!!! and tibb.... YOU ARE THE GRETEST FUCKIN FRIEND ALIVE!!!! NO ONE IS A TIBB AND NO ONE CAN BE THE TIBB!!!!!! I LOVE THE TIBB!!!! lol :-P Sam i need to see you i miss you alot.... I mean like 1-10 a 10 lol i love you guys very much and i cant wait to see you both
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| 10:18pm 26/07/2004 |
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well my uncle just died and im takin it kinda ruff..... im alone too so i dont have anyone to turn to. i dont have anyone to hold to confort me or anything. so im on this one alone even though i do like someone.... have for a lil wile now.... but god it fuckin sux he had to leave me so soon when i need him the most.... cuz i dont have very many people anymore who really care as much as they used to... theres really no one here anymore... im on my own.... :-\ dude i need someone to hold for like an hour at a time and just have fun with.... have fun but can have its compationate moments.... lol those are awesome lol.... and i love all my cuzins very much specialy Boo... shes always there for me no matter what.... i love you babe and ron chris amanda you guess are the fuckin shit... I LOVE YOU tibbers i love you so much youll never give up until im happy :-D... but ull be trying forever... but other than this im happy as hell NO MORE BLACK unless its shirts lol i love ya all layter
Stacey..... i really miss talkin to you...
Will Hontos house ask him to go 21rst of August its gonna be awesome lol.... love ya man layter
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| 09:29pm 18/07/2004 |
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ive been happy latly and all this bologna i got my best friend back and its so fucking awesome i like missed him :-P (joey) i like someone alot and i hope they know that and take it into consideration :) theres alot going wrong at the same time tho.... but itll be gone soon it never stays.. ill be writing a lil more often in this bizzitch so i love who ever reads this <3 layter |
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| 10:25am 21/06/2004 |
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mood:  cheerful music: Something Corporite-Konstantine
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back from canada..... i missed home and my life. i missed alot of people and things i used to do but i had alot of time to clear my head. with no interuptions. ive got most of it straight and ive changed in some ways. im happy i went to canada to get all the confussion and everything else out but im glad to be home. but now i look back and see myself 3 weeks ago. and i dont miss him for a second. i ruined my life no one else did it for me. and the person who did help me (even tho he hates me with a passion) was will honto. him yelling at me and showing me who i was helped me out. i denied it and said i was changed but.... i didnt know for sure whod id hurt next. if he ever reads this... Thanks Will... i appreciate it. ill be leaving soon to go to Kevins to play some guitar and whatever. but even though i like 2 people. ill never do what ive done again. and ill never have a chance anyways. im not good enough but i better get used to it. lol well im gonna go
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| 12:14am 13/06/2004 |
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mood: hopeful music: Something Corporate-Hurricane
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its been a lil since i typed in here..... ive been happy ever since i met her and now it blows my mind that i think i have a chance with her..... shes so beautiful and so kind.... but she thinks shes nothing..... to anyone.... and so far anyone ive asked said she was beutiful..... man i cant wait to see her again..... she means so much to me..... and with every word i get happier and eger to see her..... shes so amazing..... man its amazing how u meet someone and just know uve been dreaming about this girl forever..... but never met her and when u met her..... u like wanted to like stop breathing..... so kind, so caring... loving, so appreciating, so beautiful... gorgouse, so amazingly... just wow.... shes the greatest.... :)and she was a friend B4 anything and i hope my resent dreams come true..... and i see you very soon..... i <3 u
Love always N L|ever,
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| 08:41pm 25/05/2004 |
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hey this is kinda important so if your reading this listen closly.... lifes not something to be depressed about and want to die.... live it to the fullest.... i know ive been all depressed and have had all this so called drama but i had a great friend help me out on this and show me how dumb ive been latly and compare my 7th grade life to my life now..... i was alot happier and alot better without my ashley and erin problems even with the stacey stuff i was still happyier with out the fucking switching to try and make me happy or other people.... who gives a damn about other people have fun wile you still can.... you never know when u mightg die and if you keep saying i wish i was dead ur a fagget beyotch and need to shut ur mouth and realize life isnt that bad and ur not even half way threw it so you shouldnt quit so easily and u definatly should give up on the good or ok things in life.... if you have something... hold on to it but if it breaks or leaves you dont be depressed just buy a new one or find someone better... and dont say there isnt anyone better because u dont know a 1000th of the people in thisd world.... i appreciate the help from everyone or the people who cared enough to try and help.... but for the people that start rumors and like to to try and get people in trouble.... fuck you guys u can all suck a dick.... the people that have helped the most in my life because they never stoped caring and helping me were Matt Joey Tibberdoodles Stacey Tara and bobby.... you guys kick ass but the one person who sat down and talked to me and made me realize how much of an asshole ive been to about everyone and how greedy ive been and selfish and how stupid..... was Matt Lewandowski... thanks man.... appreciate it.....
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| 06:04pm 06/05/2004 |
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mood: happy music: SoundGarden-Black Hole Sun
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well lifes been sweet ass latly ive got my head straight on one person and tomarrows going to be so fuckin sweet ass.... im in love with ONE PERSON AND ITLL NEVER GO AWAY so you guys be proud be proud lol..... ive been alot happier and alot better ever since if set my life straight... and i know ill be alot better after this fog in my head clears up a lil bit more.... i have only a few holes left in my heart and everyday that goes by and i see HER they close up even more.... and if i ever kissed her.... theyd all go away.... im done with everything that makes me depresseed and im sticking with that one person who makes me happy. even if it takes me FOREVER to get her hey i can wait..... KING vs QUEEN tomarrow come watch the rumble lol..... inside joke..... but hey everyone who reads this LISTEN UP!!! TARA DOWNEY AND GWEN RUSSELL ARE THE SHIT AND I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!!!!!!! they are the greatest friends alive!!!!! and TIBBERS IS MY ONE AND ONLY TIBBERDOODLES!!!!! thank ya for reading my post
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| 11:53pm 27/04/2004 |
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my lifes so fuckin fucked up..... im going to just say fuck you all!.... and be happy with my best friend..... im sick of crying for appsolutly no reason at all. just to cry over broken feelings broken hearts bloody tears everywere.... i cant stand this shit she pushes me threw. im sick of this shit. once upon a time i was in love and i became to excesive with it. i fell for a girl... Stacey. Now that i know she had the power to destroy me. just from an emotion i dont give anyone that power. she has had the power since 7th grade and i guess i was afraid of it. but ya know.... it was my fault she ever hurt me. i made her mad and anyone who likes her... thats a BIG NO NO! lol Stacey is now my best friend. and shes there for anything or at leased tries to be..... but when shes not... i break down and tare myself into shreads. and she is still the onl one who can destroy me all over again... i guess she doesnt know. but she wants me happy i think. but theres only a few ways but there not easy.... they all hurt others or are only dreams. no one understands me in this fucking world. and latly i could care less about anyone or anything. i really hate this life i live.... WHY ME!? i just want to be alone.... unless its with ........ well a dream.......
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| 05:13pm 30/03/2004 |
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mood: confused music: Dry Kill Logic-Goodnight
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ive had a great few weeks latly and all but ive had this hole burned threw me in the past and it still hurts when the wind blows threw and right now theres a hurrican. my body achs and its hard to move... my mind is somewere else. its hard to think strait it always goes to that one person. i care so much for this person and i dont want to hurt anyone ever again.... it ruins my life everytime i hurt someone. and i cant stand seeing them cry. i got over one person and she stoped crying but i donno.... shes not the same. 2 people whop tare our my heart. One who makes a tear run down my face when i look in her eyes. i only love one and i have for a wile now. i donno what to do.. i think i know that she doesnt like me and i dont think anyone can love me... even tho one said she almost did. but that was in 7th grade. i dont know what to do in my life now.
Dry Kill Logic-Goodnight
now that i face the world with pain inside, strange but i cant under stand the reasons why, forever is a word that i can not desribe,the dawn of time we say goodnight, it makes no difference wrong or right, the time has come to say goodnight, and how could i be so shorburt be so wrong, and how could i have a will so weak and with a mind so strong, and only i can tell the difference right or wrong, it makes no diffderence wrong or right, the time has come to say goodnight, it makes no difference wrong or right, i guess its best we say goodnight.
Alice in Chains-Down in a Hole
Bury Me Softly In This Womb
I Give This Part Of Me For You
Sand Rains Down And Here I Sit
Holding Rare Flowers
In A Tomb.....In Bloom
Down In A Hole And I Don't Know
If I Can Be Saved
See My Heart I Decorate It
Like A Grave
You Don't Understand Who They
Thought I Was Supposed To Be
Look At Me Now A Man
Who Won't Let Himself Be
Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul
Down In A Hole, Losin' Control
I'd Like To Fly
But My Wings Have Been So Denied
Down In A Hole And They've Put All
The Stones In Their Place
I've Eaten The Sun So My Tongue
Has Been Burned Of The Taste
I Have Been Guilty
Of Kicking Myself In The Teeth
I Will Speak No More
Of My Feelings Beneath
I'd Like To Fly
But My Wings Have Been So Denied
The best band in the world at the moment is Pink Floyd
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| 09:04pm 26/03/2004 |
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mood: depressed music: 12 dry kill logic - Goodnight
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nothing goes right ever in my life.....
ASHLEY I LOVE YOU GET THAT THREW UR FUCKIN HEAD!!!!!!!!!
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| 07:30pm 24/03/2004 |
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ashley i want you to know i love you with all of my heart and i dont think anything or anyone can ever take me away from you. except for you of course but ud be the one breaking my heart not me breakin yours. right now i have things wrong other than love because im an idiot. I have to go to court and i might have to move this will suck huge balls. but i donno. id run away if i had to move. im seriouse and the new scarz i have there only cuts and its only skin sorry for cutting but i cant help it when i get sad or depressed or stressed i have to occupy my handz but i think ive found a cure. Drawing. pretty good at it too so i think ill be ok. Ashley i love you and i never want you to forget MUAH.
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| 11:32pm 21/03/2004 |
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mood: happy music: Stone Sour-Bother
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this is one of the HAPPIEST few days of my life.....no its the happiest 3 days of my life. ive finaly found the one that means more to me than anything in this world the one person who can make me happy just by smiling.... the one and only person who knows all 4 of my presure points. :-P lol and the one and only person i love and adore..... Ashley Starnes i love you very much....... and there is nothing that makes me happier than being in your arms. if id have listened to Briana for once id have never had so much DRAMA lol <---- that was for Adam Carter lol but Briana and Gwen are a huge influence on my life. and i love them both very very much. they are very weird but i dont blame them, they get it from there older brother :-D and im proud of it. Briana and Gwen you guys...... are my gardian angels. I couldnt live with out you. and Bri, ill listen to you ALOT more when it comes to my life and what would make me happy lol. you know me better than anyone. thanks Barna. Gwen you are the reason i get up in the morning lol im always wating with WIDE OPEN ARMS waitng for that HUGE hug after school. couldnt live without my gwens hugs there are very special. :-P thanks guys. Stacey, lol well when havent you helped me in my troublesome life and mental weirdness... lol thanks for everything and im sorry for all the things that ive ever done to mess things up but you are my best friend in the whole wide world. your a gfreat reason for me stickin around in this place i call a home. you and my other best friend Sr. Will Honto are the best couple ive ever met. and u guys are like WOW cute together. dont let problems interfeer with the love i see in you too. i love ya so much and i cont want to see you loose the one you love, and trust me u wont loose him :). Will man weve had our fights and other stuff but youve always been there for me even if u were so pissed at mne u could choke me but u kinda got me back for my stupidity at staceys movie thing when u kinda gave me the worst SOUL TAP OF MY LIFE! but yeah i cried lol. thank man for everything. Ashley i love you. its so amazing and i just want to be with you for the rest of my life i just never want to let go of you everytime im with you and i dont care wehat u say your so..... ~*':'*~PERFECT~*':'*~ everything about you is perfect from the top of your head to the bottom of your feet, youmay not think so but..... when i see you.... its hard to breath, i can hardly blink i never want to let my eyes leave yours..... my body goes limp and i feel faint. your the most beautifullest thing my eyes ever set sight upon. when i even hear your name my heart skips a beat. you have the most gorgouse eyes ive ever seen. when i look into them its hard to stop. it feels like an enigma of dizziness. lookin into your soul and seeing ever beat of life in your body. without you i was so empty and confused. i donno how i couldnt have seen how i feel about you. my mind is as straight as a line. no tangles or curls. i know who i love and what i was lookning for in a person and you have everything and anything i could ever think of. your my perfect person. and i love you. i just have to show you and make sure you and everyone else knows. cuz i wasnt very sure and i threw around the word love like a ...... word and its not a word its a feeling a desire a life. and i love you. MUAH! lol one more person to talk about.
JOEY DESJARDINS my hommie G dawg UNIT OF LIFE! i couldnt live with out you man you like my master from hell lol you keep me inline and help me with life period. threw the gay time no matter how mad u got at me u were still there no matter how dazzed and confussed i got u were still there to bust me in my chops and realize who i am. thanks man i love you bro. GUITAR FOR LIFE lol layter
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| 08:58pm 15/03/2004 |
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my head hurts my bodys aching and my heart thrmbles.... i feel sick to my stomach and feel like i mmight die.... i have so manythings messed up in my life...... i just wish SHE could find something out and understand and beleive me maybe id be bater actually i know id be better..... i hope SHE knows i love HER bye
BRAIN SECURES HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| 09:15pm 08/03/2004 |
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well lifes gonna be ok i guess...... im going to let life flowt down the river and see what happens farther down. but the drift goes faster as time passes by..... i dont know what to do about my problem self but ill get over it dont worry about anything im going to give me and erin another shot to see if she really loves me i hope she does but ya never know.
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| 03:45pm 17/02/2004 |
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mood: depressed music: Metallica-Nothing Else Matters
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Stacey youve been there for everything...... Im glad you and Will are so great together and even tho ive lost everything your still there for me.... you and Ashley are always was there for me... Thanx for everything you guys..... I love you both very much. This song reminds me of you..... i miss you stacey....... And some times i still wish i was Will but i donno..... sorry for everything...... I dont really cxare anymore about much of anything........ i belive everything you say..... you and Ashley are the only 2 i can trust really in my life...... and i hope u can trust me too.... but i donno about my life anymore.... i feel like i should kill myself and end it mybe life would be better for everyone else if i did die.... oh well i donno what to say about ytou really.... i know ur one of the greatest peopl ein my life and i dont think i can mean anyone else like you.... your the greatest friend in the world and i love you dearly and i hope ill never loose you i wouldnt be able to handle it and my life with out you .... so please never leave me behind in ur life.... i love you babe layter
LAYTER
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| 07:18pm 11/02/2004 |
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mood: confused music: Atreyu- Bleeding Hearts
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well this is about my brain and my heart......... well..... ya see..... on the inside i know i love erin and even on the out side but see my first kiss and my frist REAL kiss if u catch my drift was cassie..... and ill like her forever and maybe even more than i think i do..... well everytime i look at erin ya know how it feels when u look at the one u love..... well i feel that and when i look at cassie its kinda like that but weird and hard to explain..... i mean dont get me wrong i wont break up with erin but it kinda hurts cuz erin is kinda mean to me :'( and it makes me sad sometimes.... makes me depressed cuz i feel unwanted and uncared for... and well cassie always cares and she never made me feel unwated or uncared for i mean erin will be like GO AWAY and cassie doesnt want me to leave..... its weird and i donno what to do...... im mad because its so confussing....... and i like cassie so much and love erin...... but the thing is..... id rather be cared for and care back... than be pushed away..... :( SCARED OF MY OWN LIFE donno what to do about it and its kinda scary so if u have any advice please IM me and XxSaNdZoFtImExX on AIM layter |
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| 02:01am 01/02/2004 |
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